Worriers are warriors

I am a worrier
and by that I mean
there are these little demons in my head
that try to occupy more space than they're worth.
They tickle away at my brain,
and at night they really come alive,
for they thrive off the darkness
when the light has gone from my big ideas.

The first one
is so big I'm not too sure how he fits,
he tells me that I am never going to get anywhere in life
that my job as a waitress
will be long term.

The next
likes to tell me that I don't have enough talent
to do what I love.
Forget drawing or writing,
there is always someone better.

After that,
there's this little one
that tells me I don't have the money
to move out, or travel
and I will be stuck in this place forever.

The next one has been with me so long
that I almost consider her a friend,
she tells me that I'm not pretty enough
or skinny enough
for anyone but her to like me.

I hate them,
and they terrify me,
more than any horror movie or spider
but I am fighting these little monsters every single day.
therefore,
I am a warrior.




inspired by this video 

Musings of a lost girl

I run a blog about nothing in particular and just write about whatever I want to. I don't know if anyone even bothers to read it or if I am just writing these musings to myself, I don't think I would read my blog if it wasn't mine. But because it's mine maybe I will figure some stuff out about myself, or maybe it'll remain as a lost little piece of the internet. But at least it's completely mine.

Truth be told, I don't know what I'm doing on here. I think I like to write, but I don't think I'm any good at it. I like to draw, but I'm pretty average at that as well. I think I'm hoping for some miracle in the form of blogging. I am a perfectionist but I want to be happy with this imperfect blog. 

So heres what I'm going to do: I'm going to keep writing on here, some posts might be pretty bad (like this one) but maybe I can build up my writing skills, maybe I can talk about my illustrations more. I don't really know. 

Thats all for now, 

love from a lost girl