Drink

When everything is drunk

You look through it with one eye

To concentrate on what you see

Even if it demands a 2D perspective 

Because in reality everything is disorganised 

Lazy

am I ill 

or am I just sick 

of getting out of bed 

maybe I enjoy having no schedule to follow 

a day to just stop. 

I can lie and lie 

and think of all the ways my body pains me 

then I will believe in this sickness 

maybe 

it is made up 

or real 

in my head 

I long to travel

I long to travel and see the world, I have never had the bravery to organise and go on a trip but have longed for it all my life. Over a year ago I was meant to be traveling by myself to Indonesia, unfortunately my anxiety had a lot to say about that and it began to be more stress than it was worth, but I promised myself that I would go when I was ready.

Indonesia was put on hold but then a few months ago I decided I would give traveling another go, I organised for me and my best friend Bethan to go to Morocco (just for a week), it is now 20 days away and I have never been more excited, I have organised this trip myself and it has been so rewarding to do so as my organisation skills are normally not the best! However I have proven to myself that I am capable of being organised when I put my mind to it when it's for something I will enjoy.

I have only been abroad on family holidays besides one party holiday with friends, and have only been out of Europe once to visit Florida (which has a very similar culture so I don't count that as traveling) so this will be a totally new experience. It is a stepping stone towards Indonesia, and a manageable one that my anxiety hasn't controlled.

Morocco is the beginning of this aspect of my life, and I believe that once I've conquered it, I will be flying everywhere across the world in years to come, hurrah!